44 Blueberry Hill, Saturday

[sleepswthdemons]

Phoebe was tired of being cooped up and feeling a little restless. She couldn't seem to get comfortable and her emotions and hormones were slightly frayed.

Ok, more than slightly.

After some wheedling, begging and threatening, the boys had helped Phoebe get settled on the front porch swing.

She was, of course, wearing a jacket and there was a blanket nearby in case she got chilled. There was also a pitcher of Lavender Jasmine tea on the table next to her as well as her laptop and a selection of trashy novels.


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[dark-innocence.livejournal.com]

"I couldn't," Lana said, turning into her for comfort, "Couldn't talk to anyone about it. He... he went on a mission to South America and -"

Her voice broke and it took her a minute to be able to go on. "His helicopter went down. There were no survivors."

[sleepswthdemons.livejournal.com]

Phoebe let out a soft sound and continued to hold Lana. "Oh my god, I am so sorry, Lana."

[dark-innocence.livejournal.com]

"It hurts so much," Lana whispered. "So much I can barely breathe sometimes."

[sleepswthdemons.livejournal.com]

"I know, Lana, I know." And unfortunately, she did know. She started rocking her friend gently.

[dark-innocence.livejournal.com]

"I'm sorry I didn't come, I couldn't talk about it - still can't," Lana said brokenly. "Dean, he made me stay with him till I could function again instead of just sit and stare all day and then I was sick and..."

[sleepswthdemons.livejournal.com]

"No apologies, Lana. Grief is a powerful thing and sometimes we have no choice on how we deal with it."

[dark-innocence.livejournal.com]

"Not well," she admitted. "But... I'm doing my best."

"And Phoebe... Lex... Lex is dead."

[sleepswthdemons.livejournal.com]

She didn't see how that was a bad thing...

"What happened?"

[dark-innocence.livejournal.com]

"He sent me a photograph - of a man who looks exactly like Dean. He'd been beaten and killed and... And there was a note threatening Jim and Dean and... I decided -" She swallowed hard. "I snuck out of town and drove to Smallville, but I couldn't. If Dean and Jim hadn't tracked me down -"

Yeah, that was a thought she didn't want to finish.

[sleepswthdemons.livejournal.com]

She stroked Lana's hair, just deciding to be silent and let her friend talk.

[dark-innocence.livejournal.com]

"When they found me, Lex knocked me out, hit me in the face with the gun he took from me and they shot him." She looked up at Phoebe. "He was a good man once. I don't know what happened, but he was good once."

[sleepswthdemons.livejournal.com]

"I'll have to take your word for it, Lana." She hugged her. "I'm glad you're alive. I don't want to think of you being gone."

[dark-innocence.livejournal.com]

She nodded, hugging Phoebe back tightly. "I still, Lana Luthor is still dead, but at least I don't have to live in quite so much fear."

[sleepswthdemons.livejournal.com]

"You not living in fear is a good thing in my book, sweetie."

[dark-innocence.livejournal.com]

"Yeah," she said quietly. "Jim - he was going to take me to Hawaii to celebrate. And take me to meet his friends. I would have had to be Leah Blackwell, but at least I could have gone."

[sleepswthdemons.livejournal.com]

"I'm so sorry, Lana."

[dark-innocence.livejournal.com]

"Yeah, me too," she said quietly. "God, you'd think by now I'd just be used to this. Or I'd have stopped trying."

[sleepswthdemons.livejournal.com]

"You never get used to stuff like this," she said gently. "And you have a big heart. There's nothing wrong with that."

[dark-innocence.livejournal.com]

Her eyes filled. "That's what Jim always said."

[sleepswthdemons.livejournal.com]

She hugged her close again. Not much she could say to that.

[dark-innocence.livejournal.com]

Lana held on tight, then slowly pulled herself together. "I'm okay," she said, "Really. Or as okay as anyone could expect. Just... some days..."