Phoebe's Room at Blueberry Hill, Saturday Morning

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With as much as she had drunk with Dean the night before, Phoebe had assumed that she would have a deep, dreamless sleep. She had assumed that it would be easy to sleep.

She had assumed wrong.

She fell asleep almost instantly, but then she tossed and whimpered as the images moved rapidly through her mind. Even from sleep, tears were sliding down her cheeks as she tossed wildly on the bed.





... The Source of All Evil. An enemy she had thought they destroyed ten years before.

The Source was there, attempting to kill Piper and Paige. His eyes... his eyes were a flat black with no emotion whatsoever.

It wasn't Cole.

Somehow The Source had found a way to take control of her soulmate again.

The vanquish of her love... harder than it had been before -- even when she knew knew that she could go to the Wastelands and rescue her beloved...

...The Seer kidnapped her before she could...losing the baby to the Seer... the explosion that killed the Seer and her son...


Phoebe whimpered in her sleep.


She was in the Penthouse... Cole showed up...

"Cole! You're alive. You're okay." She ran to him, tried to embrace him, but he shoved her away.

"You failed me, Phoebe. You were supposed to keep us safe... keep our son safe."

The anger in his voice and his face ripped at her heart. "No, Cole, I --"

"You lost our son, Phoebe. Our child. You let the Beast take me. It's your fault we're gone. Yours."





Phoebe woke with a sharp cry. "No!"

When her eyes cleared and she saw where she was, she buried her face in her hands and started sobbing.


[[OOC: Open for anyone who might have heard her or have reason to decide to check on her.]]

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Lana was feeling a little sick inside after seeing the news about Dean and Phoebe on the roof together. But she couldn't ignore the sounds of tears from Phoebe's room. Besides, she kept telling herself that Dean wouldn't do that to her.

She knocked on the door. "Phoebe."

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"It's not locked," Phoebe managed to force out as she curled up on the bed and sobbed.

I tried, Cole, I tried to save you!

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Lana came in slowly. "Hey, sweetie. Heard you crying and had to come in."

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Phoebe looked up. "He hates me, Lana. Cole hates me."

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"He doesn't," she said firmly. "He couldn't. You just had a bad dream. And you know I'm the expert on nightmares."

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"I was supposed to keep them safe."

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"Nobody can keep everyone safe," she said. "And you know Cole would be the first one to tell you that."

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"I thought I could sleep if I drank enough last night. I thought I wouldn't see it all again."

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The emotional pain shot through her again. If she'd been thinking about Phoebe being an empath she might have tried to block it somehow. "Drinking never seems to help," she said quietly. "Even though it feels good to try."

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"Gods, Dean probably thinks I'm so pathetic. All I did was drink and either babble about Cole or talked about how you're like my sister and about how we'd kick his ass."

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"Dean's a good guy," Lana said. "I'm sure he didn't mind." She could feel herslf relaxing at Phoebe's words.

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Phoebe gave her best friend a serious look.

"I am very glad you have him, Lana. You deserve a good guy like that after everything you've been through." She wiped her face. "I am so sorry for bringing up bad memories for you by crying on your shoulder and telling you everything that happened."

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"What do you mean?" Lana asked carefully. "I was glad to listen. And I've certainly cried on your shoulder enough.

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Phoebe reached out to Lana. "Dean told me," she said quietly. "He probably didn't mean to as we were both drinking, but I said something that made him say that if you and I didn't stop blaming ourselves for the things that have happened to us..."

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Lana took a deep breath and let it out again. Her emotions were so mixed that she didn't even know what she was feeling. "I didn't want to add to your problems," she said quietly. "I would have told you at some point."

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"Come here so I can get a hug, please?"

She gave a sad smile. "I would never have seen it as you adding to my problems."

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Lana moved closer so she could hug her. "I can't talk about it without totally breaking down," she said softly. "And I wanted to take care of you first, not make you try to take care of me."

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"YOu're my sister-friend, Lana. We take care of each other."

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"And I would have," Lana said. "When I felt that hearing it wouldn't make you decide to kill yourself again."

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Phoebe looked down for a moment to blink back tears. "It wouldn't have made me do that... might have made me decide to go kill Lex, though."

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"No one is killing Lex. No one is going anywhere near him," Lana said, shivering. "Especially not you. He'd... experiment on you. You'd be locked away where no one could find you. Why do you think I never told you anything about what was going on?"

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That... was something Dean hadn't told her.

"Experiment... on me?" Her throat went dry. "Because I'm a witch?"

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Lana nodded. "I found out he was... collecting meteor mutants. Nothing I could prove in a court of law, but he was. And, of course, he'd been to Fandom that one time and knew about you and Marie and when he started asking questions about how you were doing and where you were... I knew what he wanted. I had to pretend I'd lost contact with you and stay out of contact. Everything I did was watched and monitored."

She couldn't stop shivering. "Dean doesn't understand how powerful he is," Lana explained. "You do. It's not that I'm afraid of Lex as a man, but he controls... everything. He owns police and FBI agents and government officials. He has enough trained killers to be pratically his own private army. If he ever got his hands on you... no one would ever see you again.

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Phoebe hugged her tightly. "We're safe here, Lana. He can't find you... and you don't have to hide from me to protect me from him any more."

Yes, she was scared of what Lana had told her Lex could do to her... and she didn't want to made to disappear. But she was here and she had Lana in her life again. That was worth some of the fear.

"Dean won't let anything happen to you."

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"Dean," Lana said, all the confusing emotions about him welling up inside her - the ones she didn't want to admit or acknowledge even to herself. "Dean thinks he can take on Lex by himself. He broke into the mansion to get back some of my things - which I'd told him was too dangerous to do - and he caught Lex off guard and beat him up. He doesn't understand that Lex will be ready for him next time and as amazing as he is, he can't stand up to 40 armed men with submachine guns waiting to kill him."

She held on to Phoebe tightly. "It terrifies me. The nightmares I'm having..."