42 Blueberry Hill, Phoebe's Room, Sunday Afternoon/Evening

[sleepswthdemons]

After the conversation with Lana, Phoebe hadn't come immediately to her bedroom. She had hung out downstairs drinking coffee and trying not to cry about the fact that Lana was hurting -- and that she had used underhanded tactics on her best friend to keep her from running away from here.

After she had drank plenty of tea and coffee -- caffeine kept her awake and from falling into too deep of a sleep, thank gods -- she grabbed Lana's bag again and headed up to her room.

She entered her room quietly so as not to wake up Anders, and headed immediately to the closet to stash the bag. Of course, going into the closet meant that she saw all of the "gifts" and she swallowed, trying to stop shaking.

Crouching down, she retrieved a boittle of tequila and opened it, taking a very long drink, before going to sit in the chair by the window. Anders needed his rest, and from here she could keep an eye on him -- while at the same time not bothering him by her resteless and her anxiety.

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Phoebe smiled, watching him. "She promised me before that she wouldn't leave without me and I can't leave right now." She gave a sad sigh. "I hate that she's hurting and I wish I could fix it. Instead, I took her escape bag so she couldn't go."

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"Good." Sam bit his lip. "You're not going anywhere without me, though. You know that, right?"

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Phoebe nodded. "I know. I told her that you couldn't be up and around yet." She looked at him. "I think I would have a hell of a fight on my hands if I tried to run off with Lana and leave you behind."

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"Bet your ass you would," Sam said with a soft laugh. "I'm not losing you again, Phoebe. Don't care what I have to do to make sure I don't."

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"Well, I told her we couldn't leave until you were able to be up and around a lot better."

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"You'd take me with you, huh?" asked Sam with a slight smile.

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"If you wanted to go with us..."

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"I want to be wherever you are." Sam brushed a light kiss over her knuckles. "So yeah, if you went I'd go too."

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"I would never ask you to uproot yourself again, but if Lana goes... I go, too. We promised."

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"And if you go," Sam replied, "so do I. I can't take the chance on losing you again. I promised I'd take care of you, and I don't really care where I am if you're there."

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She gave him a slight smile. "Love you for that, you know."

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Sam smiled and tugged lightly at her hand, hoping to coax her down where he could hold her. "Yeah, well . . . love you for a lot of things."

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She let herself be pulled down to lay on the bed next to him. "Oh?"

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"Yeah." Sam couldn't roll onto his side to hold her the way he wanted to, so he just reached down and laced their fingers together, then turned his head to look into her eyes. "Love everything about you. Don't ask me to list stuff . . . brain's still all fuzzy from th'stupid meds."

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Phoebe squeezed his hand. "I'm not that mean," she said with a soft smile. "How are you feeling?"

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"Hungry," Sam admitted. "But mostly restless. Tired of being laid up in bed . . . wish I was completely better already."

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"You want me to go get you something from the kitchen?" She smoothed his hair back. "You have to be patient. You were hurt pretty badly."

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"Rather have you here for now," Sam said, turning his head and kissing the inside of her wrist. "Want to do more than just lie here and be careful about not rolling over to hold you, and frak my ribs back up. I'll go down to the kitchen later . . . need to at least get up and walk around for a few minutes to get the blood going in my legs."

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Phoebe smiled and turned her head to kiss him gently.

"You'll get better soon, sweetie and then you can hold me all you want to."

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"Still don't understand why someone'd go after me," Sam said, his forehead still touching hers. "Unless it was just to get at you . . ."

He didn't think he should worry her more by bringing up his attacker's claims of possession.

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"If what the guy in the park said when I went hunting is any indication, that's exactly why you..."

Oops. She hadn't planned on telling him about the attack in the park.

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Sam swore softly when his sudden move to sit up and look at her pulled at his stitches. "Went hunting?"

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Phoebe blanched. "Uhm... yes?"

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"You were hurt, Phoebe," said Sam, biting his lip. "You shouldn't have been out hunting."

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"You were almost killed," she retorted. "No way was I letting any demon get away with that." She looked away for a moment. "I had a premonition... saw the demon and went after him. He was going to kill me... but something stopped him."

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"Do you think it's the same guy?" Sam could have argued with her about the wisdom of going hunting, but he wasn't in the mood to fight. "Because the one who attacked me . . . he could've finished me off, too, but he didn't."

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"My stalker killed him."

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"Your stalker . . ." Sam shook his head. "Phoebe, none of this makes any sense."

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Phoebe was starting to tremble just a little. "He said he couldn't have me... that I belonged to him..."

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The hell with his ribs, or the stupid stab wound in his stomach -- Sam reached over and pulled Phoebe into his arms.

"He can't have you," he said fiercely. "That's why . . . he told me I couldn't have you, either."

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Phoebe had tears in her eyes. "I was right... you almost got killed because of me... just like Cole did..."

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"Listen to me, love," Sam said, his lips against her ear as he held her close, willing himself to ignore the pain in his chest. "I knew what the risks were. He almost killed me and I still wanted to be with you. I still do. It's worth it, do you understand?"

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"Are you sure, Anders? Because, I wouldn't hold it against you if you changed your mind."

Which she still worried he'd do once the pain meds were completely out of his system.

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"Yes, I'm sure." He nuzzled her cheek. "Not changing my mind on this. Not letting go of you again."

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Phoebe wrapped an arm around him gently. "Don't want to lose you again."

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"You won't. I promise." Sam kissed her very softly.

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Phoebe leaned into the kiss. "Holding you to that."

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"Just like I'm holding you to not trying to stay away from me to protect me?" asked Sam.

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Phoebe leaned her forehead against his. "I'm trying... but I am so damn scared I'm going to get you killed."

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"You?" Sam laughed and slid his good hand up into her hair. "I know you . . . you'd move the earth to keep me from getting hurt. I'm safer with you than I am without you."

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"I'll always do my best to protect you and keep you safe."

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"And I love you for it, baby," murmured Sam.